What is Nine Crowns of Grace™?

Nine Crowns of Grace™ is a faith-based identity restoration ministry founded by Beverly Parraz. It offers Christian coaching, devotionals, a podcast, and free resources to help high performers step into their God-given identity and overcome parental absence wounds.

Who is Nine Crowns of Grace™ for?

Nine Crowns of Grace™ serves Bright Souls — high performers who are carrying identity wounds from parental absence or emotional neglect, and who are ready to step into their God-given identity and calling through faith in Christ.

What is a Bright Soul?

A Bright Soul is someone who shines outwardly — often a high performer — but carries identity wounds from parental absence or not being fully seen growing up. Nine Crowns of Grace™ exists to help Bright Souls discover who God made them to be and walk in that identity.

What is the free healing guide?

The free guide helps you identify which identity wound may be shaping your life today, and offers a faith-based starting point for your identity restoration journey with Nine Crowns of Grace™.

Does Beverly Parraz offer identity restoration coaching?

Yes. Beverly Parraz offers 1-on-1 coaching sessions and group coaching through the Bright Soul Coaching Circle, both focused on faith-based identity restoration, parental absence healing, and stepping into your God-given calling.

Yes. The Nine Crowns of Grace™ Podcast is available on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, and Podbean. Episodes cover identity restoration, parental absence healing, faith, purpose, and stories from Bright Souls stepping into who God made them to be.

Are there devotionals about parental absence and identity restoration?

Yes. The Healing the Unseen Wounds devotional series on Nine Crowns of Grace™ covers eight types of emotionally absent parents — including physically absent parents, conflict-avoidant parents, perfectionist parents, and more — all through a faith-centered identity restoration lens.

Why Trauma Makes It Hard to Love God — God Loves Us Anyway

Trauma can make trust feel risky, closeness feel unsafe, and love feel complicated. But God is not intimidated by the places where you struggle to trust Him. He stays close.

"We love because he first loved us." — 1 John 4:19

Reflection

Trauma teaches the body and mind that the world is not safe. It can make trust feel risky, closeness feel dangerous, and love feel complicated. When you've been hurt by people who were supposed to protect you, it's understandable that trusting God might feel confusing or even threatening.

God is not offended by your hesitation. He understands why your inner alarm flares, why your guard goes up, and why your heart feels cautious. His love is not fragile. He meets you where you are, not where you think you "should" be. He loves you first, patiently, steadily — even when you're not sure how to love Him back.

Crown Insight

Your difficulty trusting God is not a failure of faith; it's a sign of where you've been wounded. God knows that, and He stays.

Gentle Encouragement

You don't have to force yourself to feel close to God. You can start with honesty: "Lord, I want to trust You, but it's hard." That honesty is worship.

Journaling Prompts

Where do you notice fear or resistance when you think about trusting God?
What experiences in your story might be shaping that response?
What would it look like to take one small step of trust with God today?

Closing Prayer

God, You know the places where trust feels hard for me. You see the memories, the fear, and the confusion. Thank You that Your love is patient and kind. Help me take one small step toward You today. Meet me in my hesitation and show me that You are safe. In Jesus' name, amen.